The Waiting Game Gets Longer

As each week goes by we are getting closer and closer, yet sometimes it feels like we are running a marathon without knowing exactly the distance and exactly how far we have come. We were warned by others that this step was a bit daunting and they were correct. We know that our paperwork is in the capitol. We were originally told it took 4-6 weeks to go through the capitol, but now it seems as though things are slower and taking 60 days. This was a huge blow to me today. At first I was filled with such sadness and I felt sick to my stomach at the news. I then stepped back and realized that 2-4 more weeks longer will not be the end of the world. This way we will have spring break for one last vacation with just the two of us. I don’t have to worry about missing the science fair and I will get to be with my students longer, thus I will not have to lose so much money while I am on leave. I must keep reminding myself that this is all for a reason. While we were trying to conceive I always believed that it didn’t happen because the right child for us was not ready and I still feel this way with adoption. The right child will be ready when the time comes and however small and helpless I feel right now, I must know that the universe is unfolding perfectly as it should.